A Deluge Of Failed Attempts...

Somehow, I just find myself unable to concentrate in class or whatever I'm doing. What's wrong with me. Even during slack breaks or after skipping lecture, I fall asleep in the library. I fall asleep anywhere. In practical labs, in tutorials, in lecture halls, and even during ICAs. I can sleep anywhere! What's wrong with me. Why do I feel lethargic in the day and when it comes to the night, my eyes would be as wide as an owl.
Something is really wrong with me. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Here are a few reasons why:

• I listen to screamos. Thus making me crazy.
• I'm a fucking procrastinator. Even though the push is so hard in me to do something, I would still fail to do it eventually.
• Sometimes I just stare blankly into space.
• Sometimes I hallucinate when I'm alone. Worsening my insomnia condition.
• I have imsomnia.
• My words speak louder then actions.
• I behave emo-ly.
• I talk to myself sometimes.
• I walk about when I have nothing to do. *It seems though I've been possessed*
• I'm blogging even though I have a cartload of shit to do.

Exams just coming, yet I'm still procrastinating with my studies. Accounting. I'm like still stucked with the first tutorial and it's almost the end of the semester. Marketing. I've yet to finish typing the environmental plan which I was assigned to do, NUMEROUS WEEKS ago.

Also, I'm suffocating from the aftermath of doing things which I ain't suppose to do some Saturdays ago. Regret is the word to put it. Simply.

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Damn Regret



The moon is shining bright
The mood is feeling right
I’ll kiss you on your neck
People will stare but we won’t care
We’re high above the ground
We’re nowhere to be found
Empowered by adrenaline
Feel I've been born again
Again, I am repeating myself

And I know it is time for you
To sit and pretend

Damn regret, I’ll try to forget
Don’t worry about me
Cause I’m refined
Cast my line
To see what’s behind
Did you think you persuaded me to let you go?

I’m wishing you were here
My weakness is my fear
Alone I am myself
No reason left for me to care
Distracted by the sound
I hear footsteps all around
Empowered by adrenaline
Feel I've been born again
Again, I am repeating myself

And I know it is time for you
To sit and pretend

Damn regret, I'll try to forget
Don’t worry about me
Cause I’m refined
Cast my line
To see what’s behind
Did you think you persuaded me to let you go?

You’re the only one I turn to
When I feel like no one’s there
And when I’m lonely in my darkest hour
You give me the power
To sit and pretend

Damn regret, I’ll try to forget
Don’t worry about me
Cause I’m refined
Cast my line
To see what’s behind
Did you think you persuaded me to let you go?

Did you think I'd forget?
Did you think I'd surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?
Did you think I'd forget?
Did you think I'd surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?

there are just damned regrets.
{
the difference between failed to try and tried but failed is that,
at least i tried.
}